I found out just the other day that I was not alone. There are millions like me. They are all over the world and they all don't really know what is going on. I know this sounds weird but you are one of them too. You are here and yet not there. Or at least you are not always here either. I find myself sometimes elsewhere and not exactly sure how I got there. In the mean time I find myself also here sometimes and am not sure how I got here. See things are not always what they seem or they are not what we expect them to be.
So one day I took a step. It wasn't a very important step, it was just a step. You know, now that I look back on it, it was a relatively important step, but at the time it was nothing. It was an ordinary step. A step followed by other steps not so different either.
I think you know that I am talking about. Each day you take a step. Sometimes in the right direction and sometimes a step or two backwards. I know that some days I take some forward and other days I take some backwards. But all in all I take a step each day or many sometimes.
Now some days I take important steps. Steps to lose weight, change my behavior, change my attitude, love more, do my job better, live more, be more understanding, be more patient, and even to sleep more. Okay the last one is a bit of a stretch for me. I get about 6 - 7 hours of sleep a night during the work week and a few extra hours on the weekends. But each step leads me closer to something.
I kind of know what that something is, but I also don't know what that something is. You see I am on a journey. You are too. Each and everyone of us, on this planet is on a journey. Each one of us is on a unique and individual journey.
My step started off in a hallway. A nondescript hallway. You know the kind. It led to a door way and that was all. I did not know what was on the other side of the door, but I knew I needed to go through. Simply put, there was no other direction to go in. It was either forward or backward. I did not like going backward. I had already been there and did not care too much for that place. I figured forward was the best direction. It made me a bit nervous though. I mean here I am in a hallway with one door. A door I have not been through before and one that had no markings. A door that looked about as nondescript as the hallway.
So what to do. I can go forward, backward or sit right where I am at, here in a hallway, going nowhere. I don't like being where I was. I want a change, but what is the cost? Where will it lead me? I saw no other doors. So here I am and I must decide what to do. This hallway looks pretty boring. But on the other hand it is safe, quiet and boring. Not so sure I like boring either. I am a doer, a mover. I only sit still by choice or if I absolutely have to. I still have no answers, and the door is still there and it is still quiet here.
I know what I want! I want direction! I want understanding! I want to know what is on the other side of that door before I open it. You know what I am talking about. You want it to. You want to spoil the surprise and take the risk out of it. You want to remove the risk and the uncertainty and know what is going on before you make the decision. That is the safe thing to do. If you have all the cards you can make the best choice, but when you are lacking some of the cards then you can't make the best choice, you can only make the best choice, dependent upon the available information.
So what do you do? Do you walk through the door? Do you sit around in the hallway? Do you go backwards to a place you don't want to be anymore? I do not know what is on the other side of this door or your door for that matter. We all have different doors. Different journeys have different doors. I may even wait around in the hallway for a little while, you know a day or two. But I always try to move forward when I have the choice. So, I go up to the door and listen. Nothing. I sniff around it. Nothing. I look for cracks of light around the edges. Nothing. I touch the door. Warm, but not hot. Almost inviting even. I touch the knob and feel less warmth, but almost a comfortable temperature and I get a good feeling from it.
I guess I will turn the knob and open the door. As I do there is a sound of air escaping, birds singing and I can breath in air that is fresh from a rain. I open the door further and see a field and trees, mountains in the distance and I can hear a stream. There is path in front of me and it leads somewhere, but to where? I don't know. I have just opened a door and am looking around, taking it all in. Oh what colors, what beauty, what splendor. It looks so inviting. It looks so peaceful. Do I walk through? Do I step out upon the path and leave the safety of the hallway behind?
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