Lost, Fallen

Are you there?  I hope so.  I am lost and can't find my way.  I seem to have strayed from the path you set.  The one I was originally following.

I am here.
Good.  Can you help me?
Sure.
I fell.
I know.
I want to get up and continue on.
I know.
Can you help me?
Yes.  Get up, be healed.  Move on.  I am with you.
That is all I need?
Yes.
Thank you.

I fell today.  I tripped yesterday and it lead to a fall today.  I have since gotten back up and am continuing on with my life.  It is sometimes not easy.  I want to stay upright, but sometimes I just can't.  I want to keep moving, but sometimes I just stumble.

Will you always be here when I fall?
Yes, I carry you then.
Thank you.
I am always right here with you even if I seem far away, I am always just a call away, just reach out and touch me, call my name and I will answer.  I am always right here beside you.
Thank you.

There are some days where I seem to fall more often.
Yes, you do.
Why is that?  What makes yesterday or today different from tomorrow or two days ago, or last week.  I wish I understood.  I want to see trouble coming so I can avoid it.
I know.  But then you would never learn.  You would be constantly avoiding situations and events that you can learn from.  It would lead to a pointless life.  You will see them coming sometimes and many times you do see trouble coming.  It is a matter of making the choice to avoid it or to allow it.  You can tackle this problem, with my help you can succeed.  You just need to ask for the help, every day, every hour, and sometimes even every minute.  Listen and follow and you will see a change.  
Just like in other areas, right?
Right
Okay, will try to do this.
That is all I ever ask.
Thank you.
Your Welcome.


After that conversation I felt more at peace, and less at odds and less lost.  I also decided that I need to immerse myself, once again more into God's word.  I wonder how long it will last, I wonder if I can keep it going this time.  Maybe if I try to stop doing it on my own and do it with Jesus help then I can actually succeed in changing and allowing God to change me.  Life is never as easy as we think it is.  With or without Jesus life is difficult.  We need others, we need people, we need help we can't do it all on our own.  Try as we might there is more to life than being a hermit or a loner or doing everything all on our own.  Enjoy life!

We all need someone to walk with through this life.  Mine is Jesus.